I am Ready

Its a nasty feeling.
Something as nasty as the city sewage.
Awful as the smell of a rotten body never recovered.
A feeling so strange, you'd make your self sick.

The feeling of guilt.
Has caught up to me well.

I feel it lingering around me all day long
Ready to consume me
What have I done to deserve this now?

Account me guilty for
-Lying
-Cheating
-Deceiving

These things are not me; this is not who I want to be
I know I have the ability to be a good girlfriend
I know I can treat someone so well
I am ready to put my past behaviors behing me
& be the good girlfriend I know I can be.