One cold day

Let me reign your heart;
_Recapture your soul

Those were the days...
The times I now long for
Take me back to the days when loving you was right
Loving was you & me

Cease me not;
Of this on going battle
I will fight till the end
For what I once had.
What I'll forever miss, won't go!
Not like this.

Beg to differ?
Let me propose a deposition
Deprived of your love
My life has been weary
Desolate...

Emotions flee, Emotions pollute
Capture my mind
Devours my heart

Murder me, why don't you
Why don't you see!
Full blame goes to you!
Grant me this chance...
Allow me to fight for you!

_De-send a flare upon me
Illusive behavior is unnecessary
Assure me that it is me that you want.
Too much time has already been wasted
Facetious
Artificial
Fictitious
Feelings.........




................got me feeling......
PERPETRATE !

Count me guilty.
Not for loving you...
Not for caring when I'm not suppose to..
But count me as one more girl..
One more girl seen to the world
As a teary eyed soul
.....mistreated my Love

Adapt your ways
Alert your heart
Prepare your mind...

For I am coming!
I AM CHARGING
FULL FORCE
NO TURNING BACK.
This battle is soon to be MINE
I won't give up
Not this time.



Love is a battle
& I'll put my life on the line....

bipolar syndrome

2nd to N O N E
let my words penetrate you
feel what i feel
you are my playground
& im having fun!

1st come 1st serve
thats been the way it goes
but let me say 1 thing
i will not settle for less that what i deserve!!!!

i refuse to be the next girl!!!!!!!
i was there first
loved you first
loved you the most!!!

I DONT GIVE A FUCK
what you think
yeah ill be that selffish indian bitch!!

YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU PUT ME THROUGH
"i cant wait to hate you"

naw but ill never hate you
always loving you
forever wanting you

just the things you do
with or without knowing
they just bother me
not as if you care
you shouldn't
don't.

The perfect imperfection

day by day my heart grows fonder
i don't know why when our lives are halved ;

through it all, i think of you
day & night my heart craves you;

furthermore you are not whom I see
the very same girl twixy use to be

time has come & time has G O N E
time will last but time is lost

a major factor to who I may be
loving you is endless
its such a sad mystery

i will never know
the world will never recognize
others will never understand
how & why
we came to be
so resilient

bend me
break me
fold me
mold me
i will remain
in my comfort state

between the lines
I pray that someday you will find
That everything that occurs
has a reason.... with time.

too much time can burden that bird
too little time can trigger that owl
who am i to be
anyone but who im suppose to be

always rejecting myself
wanting to alter my flaws
one thing will always stay true
one thing will always be genuine
one place you can always run too

this one heart
this one mind
this one soul

patiently awaits you
my perfect imperfection
the world will never know.

love

why couldn't you treat me right
why couldn't we just be happy

something so simply said
yet so hard to accomplish

"all i've got is nothing without you"
now all im left with are these photographs
& vivid memories of me & you

hand in hand
day by day
fight or no fight
we was together
because i loved you
and you loved me

something i say almost everyday
but love is just a word
love is just a blind game
love is just the power that keeps us separated
how is that love?

starting not to believe in you anymore
all you do is cause me pain
pain is not what i need
not what anyone needs
so why do they* put up with it?
is it that serious?
i guess it is because
i myself will kill for love.

You dont know hurt

For a long time I had to suffer with the pain of getting over you

Countless nights spend crying over you

Listening to music that we magically made love to

Writing out a whole text message and not sending it because I knew

I knew I wouldn't get an answer
& if i did
Which I always did, because you never had the balls to ignore me
The response was always controversial


&& in order to not argue with you
I just didn't bother.
It hurt so bad to hold my true feelings for you in
Telling me you want to pursue someone else
& you'd appreciate it if I let you be...

How can you ask me to let you be?
I thought I was your wife
I thought I was number one
You told me I was forever
& all of a sudden you met someone new
& request that I simply let go
& leave you alone

SMH
I keep remembering the last events.
You going to Cali and me wanting to see you before you left.
SMH
Disaster-R-us
Or that day we argued and you wanted me to leave
Not knowing back then you wanted me to leave so you could chill with her
SMH
You fucked up
How can you be so cruel.
Lucky you at least you moved on
At least you found love again
At least your not stuck on me
Like im stuck on you.

Sexual Connect

He's addicted to sex
I always want it.
We sort of mess..

Every time we together
He can't help but keep his hands all over me
& I don't mind because I like it
I like feeling he gives me.

Kissing on my neck
& touching on my back
While Im moaning in his ear
& grabbing on his arm.

Shirts come off
& his skin on mine
MMMMmm
Sends me on a wild ride
My body tenses up
& my center gets moist
ready for whatever
& here he comes.

Takes a while but finally were one
up down high low
until im done
then it locks up
& lets no one back in
drys up
& stays shut

Every time I see you
I want you to tear my clothes off
& tear the pussy up

You do it the best
And although your not my boyfriend
I swear you need to be
cause the loving you've given me
got me falling all crazy.

Wild ass sex got me coming home at 7 in dha morning
Sweaty ass backs ; biting my bottom lip
Begging Trilla I want more;
You always keep me satisfied
Sexually at least;

Sex so good I couldn't go to sleep
without blogging about this

Sex so good got me tearing
Sex so good ; i got a permanent glow
High off life
His sex is so good

AAS

=] i cant stop smiling!

If only you knew
me..
The real me;
Though we haven't been talking for long you know me
But you don't know me..

I am not the type to fall so quickly
Especially sense Ive been hurt
But I don't know what it is
Something just clicked
& I think I'm falling for you...

I think about you all day long.
Wait around all day for you text.
When we talk on the phone I get nervous
& anxious... its weird.
When we are together I want things to be right.

You bring back an old feeling
Something so new
A feeling so fresh
A feelings I don't want to loose...
I want to explore this
& see how far we can take it.

You say it almost everyday
How much you like me and want to take me seriously
I can give you that chance
With time

Because as of now
I am honestly crushing on you.