You dont know hurt

For a long time I had to suffer with the pain of getting over you

Countless nights spend crying over you

Listening to music that we magically made love to

Writing out a whole text message and not sending it because I knew

I knew I wouldn't get an answer
& if i did
Which I always did, because you never had the balls to ignore me
The response was always controversial


&& in order to not argue with you
I just didn't bother.
It hurt so bad to hold my true feelings for you in
Telling me you want to pursue someone else
& you'd appreciate it if I let you be...

How can you ask me to let you be?
I thought I was your wife
I thought I was number one
You told me I was forever
& all of a sudden you met someone new
& request that I simply let go
& leave you alone

SMH
I keep remembering the last events.
You going to Cali and me wanting to see you before you left.
SMH
Disaster-R-us
Or that day we argued and you wanted me to leave
Not knowing back then you wanted me to leave so you could chill with her
SMH
You fucked up
How can you be so cruel.
Lucky you at least you moved on
At least you found love again
At least your not stuck on me
Like im stuck on you.