Threw my daddy's eyes.

To a father from a daughter

Who am I?

Daddy who am I?

In this big big world

Who am I?

Little I?

Threw your eyes

I see A me

You see me as such a disgrace

A poor excuse for a daughter

And your first at that.

Label me a whore

No lesbian - that fits me better

Get mad & threaten to kill me

Never apologize or feel remorse

& expect things to be okay?

Do you even care?

Or is it that you care so much I don't see

because for as long as i could remember

you never seemed to care

you never seemed to show any emotion

towards anything

Daddy who am I?

Threw your eyes

Who am I?

loving you was never easy

Loving you was never easy

I put in hard emotion, trust, blood, sweat & tears into us

How did we amount to nothing?

Time? times to blame.

loving you was never easy

i gave that shit my all

& when it was time to flush that shit

i never wanted to see us go down

never wanted to hold down the handle

never wanted to wash my hands of the

residue you stained me with.

even though that shit hurt like hell

i loved every second of it

and i want it back.

i need it back

because without it my life seems so meaningless

loving you was never easy

because through it all

i was there

taking the hurt

thinking it would be a gain

you moved on found a new love.

i never moved on

i will never love another again

these words i swear

my heart mind body

will not let another

make its way....

Still loving you

Im sorry I neglect you.

I only run to you when i need to vent,

but listen up..

I am an interesting girl. I have a lot to offer the world

& with my mind and my power, I wish to do so

You see.. the difference between me and you is that

you do your own thing, i do mine. This is mine.

Some may not understand how I choose to go about things

While others play the understanding roll but at the end of the day

I will not change for anyone. I feel like I proved myself to myself tonite

and thats why Im left with no one but myself tonite

& forever beyond tonite, because i was myself

& released myself.

I will never stop loving you. Let me just put that out there.

For her and any other girl to come.

I didnt come this far for no reason.

I dont understand how I can feel so strongly for someone and not be able to be with them

Beyond the worst feeling

Love plays games

Love is not our game to play

Because I bypassed love.

I over love you

& not to sound crazy but I wont stop till I have you

Why are you putting me through so much pain?

Seeing you just seeing you it makes in insane

I think back to all the times...

All the hate i felt inside

To turn around and become friends with the enemy

Inunderstandable - & i know you will never get over her

as you say you will never get over me

but i feel the need to say it

i love you

it makes me weak to hear me say it because im honestly dying without you

everyday is hard

finding someone to match up and compare to the love youve given me is a major task

i dont know why im still loving you..