Freewrite 11-3-09

Dont worry about me

Ill be fine

Just think of me

Think

Of

Me

Often

Think of me all day long

Like when your with her

& you should be with me

Think of me when you see random shit

like

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Think of me when you hear music

Think of me when Iris comes on

Think back at all the time

We

use

to be

HAPPY

All the times we made love

All the times you made me cry

All the times I was yours

& you were mine.

You still are mine!

Naw, I need to let go

Your no longer mine.

Someone else's.

I just hope you treat her like you treated me

& the next treat her worst than you treated me

Because I deserved the best

& your best that you've given me

Was straight up bullshit

Now that stink shit lingers in me

I wonder if you was good to me

Maybe I would be able to be good to someone else

Like now im stuck

I wont let you out

& no ones coming in

Im loosing a battle

Within myself

Who am I to judge

The feelings I've felt

Love is dumb

Love is stupid

I wanna be dumb & stupid

I wanna feel love

Enjoy love

Every aspect of love.

It's so beautiful

It's the truth

Back when we were in love

Honestly I dont know why this is so hard for me

It's been months now

& I can't get rid of you

Your everywhere I go

Everyone I talk to

I don't know son

Sometimes I just feel so dumb