1 of many

I can't stop thinking about you
I don't know why.
It's not as if this is new.
Is just I keep thinking bad things.

Like what if something happens to you or me
& we're like this.
Not talking.
Not together.
Non exsistant.

I hate this so much
It's so hard for me to move on
I've tryed.
So many people want me.
And to be honest
I don't want not one of them.
I know what I want.
I won't allow myself to love someone else.
Love won't even look this way
Because of what we've done.
I feel disabled to an extent
I look like I'm okay
But deep down only I know the pain I feel
The same shit I feel
Till this day.

Not a day goes by I don't think of you.
This will never change.
This is the impact you had on me
Watched our videos yesterday
Bought me to tears
I wanna be back that way
I'll give anything for that feeling.
I swear I would.

Why even bother being here
If all I want is not ready to let me in
Running away is not right
Sticking around hurt is?
I dont know what to do
When all I so desire is you
You claim its not our time
We bout to end on some sick shit
Some sick love shit
Some Romeo and Juliet drinking poison
Typa shit.