The nicest day in October

It was a Thursday
Just like any other Thursday
We only see each other on Thursday's
So why not this Thursday?

I told you how I felt
I told you to come with me
You said you would
But I knew you wanted to be mad at me
You wanted to fight with me, didn't you?
& so you did..

Never was it an issue
For me to give you
Anything
You
Needed
That's what I'm her for, baby I got you.
This time was different...

You expect me to act as if everything is cool
Treat you like your girlfriend treats you
When your girlfriend is not me
That is not my title!
That is not my name!
That is not my crown, I refuse to pretend.

How is it so?
I act as if...
We are no longer together
& together is where we need to be..
Maybe I'm the only one who feels this way
Maybe I'm missunderstanding
You told me, you told me...
We were gunna be together
Yet you cuff up some chick
Who has you blinded
Blinded not by love, as I
But blinded by friends
Blinded by status
Blinded by being "cooool"
Woooo, your the uncoolest girl I know.

Why do you refuse to be with me
You are my soul
I pour out my mind & my soul
In these freewrites I write
All of them to you
All of them with meaning
All of them my favorite
Because all of them concern you.