back burner

2nd to none
I was suppose to be your number one.
Always & shoulda been
It's filthy how things happen!

I'm disgusted
Left with a dingy taste on my buds
Where did we go wrong?
Tell me where
So
I
Can
Fix
It

We always fixed it
Why was this time different
We could have fixed it
Patch it up like you did my "HATE"
Wrap it up like any other day.

We were suppose to stay close
I miss the times
All the times
Laying next to you
Wanting to be in you
(Not sexually)
No one else will understand this
But you

I would come so close to you
Watch you while you sleep
You hated it, but you loved it
Lol. I loved it.
To me you were too pretty not to look at when you sleep
I miss the kisses on the head
Telling me you love me just because
countless times a day -- "i love you petrill"
I miss it all.

i'm tired of writing
my body is dead shaking right now
just thinking about you makes me nervous
none of this matters now
because you threw me on the back burner
im boiling over, i need a stir.
something...
just let me know somehow
what im doing
what im waiting for
is what you want

if not;
ill go
bubble over
&
dry
up
be
bitter
&
sour
forever

But ill be fine.
with
or without
you.

I will be fine.