What have I done?

Can't stop thinking about what I've done

Although your not here

I still feel wrong.

Don't need to hear anything from you

Because I already know.

I don't know why I always have to learn the hard way

I should have listened

But because things weren't going my way

I took matters into my own hands

& I did something dumb.

I made a wrong decision...

I'm not asking you to forgive me

I'm not asking for a second chance..

I'm not asking for anything...

I just wanna apologize for wasting your time..

You deserve better than me

It took this though

For me to realize what I had

What I will never forgive myself for...

I'm sorry I'm such a screw up

Most of all I'm sorry I disrespected you

& hurt you

You gave me your trust

& I broke it

I'm sorry I'm so different

But just like the rest of them.....girls

I'm sorry, I didn't mean for this to happen to you.

You don't have to come get me from work no more

Or call me trilla anymore

You don't have to hold my hand in public

Or throw me off you when we hear my mom coming.

You don't have to tell me stories till I go to sleep

Or tell me how much you miss me anymore

You don't have to come see me

Or explain anything to me...

Anymore

Because I fucked up

I know I was wrong

& I did it to myself.

I'm sorry I hurt you

But most of all I hurt myself

Because now I have to be without you...